After pounding the hot pavement for the first hour or so, "warm" quickly escaladed to hot! Suddenly, I realized I was no longer 20 years old, and I was ready to call the "poop-out-pick-up", however, I had tossed my phone in the glove box of the car, confident my determination would see me through. I came to a steep hill, and really felt like giving up. "If only I had listened to my daughter, and not felt like I could do it all on my own?" As I continued, hot, tired, and ready to give up, thirst began to set in. The more I ran, the thirstier I became. Then, at about 5 miles, I noticed a ditch or canal, full of water, right next to me. Rushing, cold water was within reach, it would taste and feel so good, yet I knew, it was not clean. For about the next mile, I ran parallel to that running water. I could hear it, see it and almost taste it. I imagined my thirst being quenched by the rushing water, and it felt so good. I could not believe how thirsty I became with each stride. I began to slow and approached the ditch. I walked along the side, staring at the water. I wanted it so badly. I was SO hot and SO thirsty, yet I knew it was not clean and if I drank it, the outcome could be disastrous!!
I stood. I pondered. I yearned for a drink. Then, I walked away and began running again. I felt empowered, and thoughts and inspiration began to flood my mind and heart!
The water could be too much idle time, late nights, dark places (figuratively and emotionally), a bad habit, temptation, or anything else that is enticing yet possibly disastrous. Then, I thought about the fact that I had water in the car. I was advised to bring it with me, yet I did not listen. How often do we intentionally surround ourselves with those things, we know, target our "thirsts" and weaknesses, all the while knowing we have access to living water and knowledge to quench any thirst the world might throw our way, yet, we do not prepare and partake? The heat could be the intensity of life! Sometimes it provides an absolutely beautiful day, yet other times, life can be so hot that we want to quit, give up and get out! Finally, the sun---- or the Son. He is there illuminating, enlightening and brightening our every day in every way, yet sometimes, we lose sight of His divine potential in our lives and we focus on the heat--- the hard times and challenges that life provides. I realized that today's challenges can and are tomorrow's strengths, with the comfort of the Son. With those realizations, I ran!! By mile 6, those inspirations began to fade, as often they do in life, and my thoughts of weakness and giving up became first and foremost in my mind. So, with the intensity of the Son, I prayed...... out loud..... as I ran! "Please, let a neighbor or friend drive by this familiar road, and rescue me!!" I ran, watched and nothing. I prayed again, this time a little louder. "Please, let even a stranger drive by, see the pain and desperation in my face, and stop and rescue me!" I ran, watched and nothing. Quickly approaching mile 7, tears welled up in my eyes, as thirst, pain, heat and frustration overcame me. Finally, I pleaded, "Please send my husband or one of my kids----whisper to them that I am struggling, and send them to my rescue..........even though I did not listen.....did not bring my phone or water.......send them!" As I looked in the distance, I could see the familiar lights of our silver Hyundai headed right for me. I began to run faster and faster, so that they would not know the extent of my desperation. It slowed as it approached, then drove right by. I prayed again. And, again, another silver car approached. Again, my speed and determination increased. And, again, the silver car of strangers drove by. I continued to pray and continued to see more silver cars than I had ever seen before.
Silver car after silver car, motivation after motivation, yet, not apparent rescue. Then, I turned down the top of our street. I slowed to a walk to allow my muscles to cool. As I walked I pondered again........... "Why had He not answered my prayers?" I walked away from the dirty water and pleaded and prayed to be rescued. Silver car after silver car, but no answer. Then it hit me. I had made it home! I had finished the race! I did not give up! I did not quit! And, He did hear and answer my prayers............ with each silver car He heard. And, with each silver car He answered! These answers motivated, encouraged and inspired when I was about to give up. He could have sent a ride......then I would have always wondered if I could have finished the run. And, I would not have learned about the "water", the "heat" or the "Son".
As I ran, I learned, He lives! He hears! He answers! He teaches! He comforts! Silver car after silver car, He sends, if we will but open our eyes, and see Him in the details of our lives. Each tender mercy, each and every day, to keep up from the dirty water, to push us and inspire us to Get Up! Get Dressed! Show up! And, Never Give Up! 7.3 miles. Silver car after silver car. He lives!!
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